As with everything in life, we let go of the things that no longer relate to us anymore.
This space has felt like home for the longest time, but home now has a very entirely different meaning to me altogether.
I’m moving. Catch you on the flipside loves.
xx
I should have walked away a long time ago.
Everyday i wake up with an aching in my heart, and it hurts like hell, like something in me died and i can never get it back. I just put on a smile anyway, its so much easier that way. But i can’t promise you that i am telling you the truth if i said i was happy everytime anyone asked.
Life to me now would be like a tea bag, the more you soak it in, the more bitter it is. So i choose to count my blessings instead. I miss home.
Note to self :
be more vocal about the way i feel, and stop anticipating disappointments, laugh more (:
UFO, aliens, love, extraterrestrial and lots of lights and shit, i love this video.
conversation with my classmate over this cute guy i met in uber pool who gave me his number and told me to hit him up.
Amrit : can you fuck him already?
Me: NO?
Amrit: why?
Me: no feelings la, i’m just being a girl.
Amrit: girls do that? then what have i been fucking all these while? TRESS???
ha ha ha ha ha my comm mates really keep me sane. But i’m just so done with this PR and auditing shit.
2016 has not been kind to me.
I picture myself in the snow(maybe), looking up into the sky, so eager to count down to 2017. And crying when the fireworks go off, relieved that the year is over.
I guess i’ll be all alone.
i spent my whole day packing..
i feel really tired now.
goodnight.
I have so much emotion in my heart…
…
I just don’t know where to start.
Today was filled with the most unexpected things and i’m still about to find out the next half of it.
I have always been very prolific with my views and things i have to say pertaining to my life in general but this time, i only have one. Unlucky is what it is. With regards to something i have no control of and have completely no right in subjugating, i can only weep in silence just so life does not condescend me more than it already has.
My emotions are fueled with angst and a collaboration of deepest sympathy for myself. A crying heart that cannot be tamed. An inner voice that cannot be heard. I’ve been overpaying the sadness inside that the happiness lacks.
It feels as though i’m missing something, as to what, i can’t be certain. The greater irony to it is the frustration of knowing it is as important as hell, seemingly told by what’s burning inside of my mind, body and soul. Sadly with so much emotion comes emptiness and uncertainty. Bless my confusion. Despite it all, i know i am my own destiny that no one can mould. I want to be seen and heard by the people closest but try as i might nobody in this world can ever know what is behind my facade no matter how much i bare. And it is true.
I can only wallow in self pity and ever so often i find that i’m only left with apathy. I have made so many mistakes in life that i really wonder who or what can change me.
And when i finally decide to explain myself, no one seems to comprehend my own knowledge. Not even my parents…..
My capabilities are all bursting at its seams but its all been buried under piles of debris. Perhaps never to be sought after.
People fail hard once and they get up stronger.
That’s where i went wrong.
Mad cool in all my clothes
Mad warm when you get close…to me
Slow dance these summer nights
Our disco ball’s my kitchen light
And ya need to know
That nobody could take your place, your place
And ya need to know
That I’m hella obsessed with your face, your face
And ya need to know
You’re the only one—alright, alright
And ya need to know
That ya keep me up all night, all night
(:
vote for the lesser of two evils of course.
oh, and .. 